After years of heartbreak over miscarriages, Cathy decides that the best way to handle her grief and self-imposed guilt is to have an affair with the much younger (sexy as hell) bad boy, Arsen. The story is told mainly through Cathy’s POV, but does have a few wonderful flashbacks that give us glimpses into Ben and Cathy’s history together, as well as a few chapters from both Ben and Arsen’s POV.Ĭathy and Ben have been together for 11 years and are unable to conceive a child. This book is about a selfish woman who thinks of no one but herself, doesn’t give a damn about who she destroys with her actions and is incapable of real love for anyone other than herself. But then I suppose I wouldn’t have read this beautifully heart-breaking book. I probably would have understood more if she had turned to drugs. I felt genuinely sorry for the pain and struggles that she had to deal with, but I can’t fathom why she felt that cheating on her adoring husband with a twit like Arsen would make anything better. Despite hating her, I did connect with her. If she were a real person, I would probably have to kick her ass for being such a selfish BITCH! That’s really the only way I can describe her. I don’t think I have ever hated a main character as much as I hate Cathy. What I didn’t know was that I was going to be left emotionally devastated after reading it. I knew from the beginning that this wasn’t a fairy tale romance novel. It’s a little over a week since I’ve finished it and I’m still reeling from it and processing it. That is really the only way I can describe how I feel after reading this book.

I’m broken, lost, and disgusted with myself.

Arsen by Mia Asher